Krzysztof Kieslowski: I’m Anxious Cancer

The first time I watched this documentary was in a sophomore communication class, and I have never been able to figure out why I watched it in a class like that.

The only answer is that the communication teacher couldn’t help but express his love for Kieslowski.

Anyone who loves Kieslowski feels some degree of anxiety about life. Perhaps because of a somewhat autistic childhood or an ill-fated youth. And he was born in the scarred Poland of both. In a country where he has had mixed feelings all his life, the tension is as vivid as the passion. Because of his never-ending contemplation of fate and deep religious sentiments, Kieslowski often shows a pessimistic view of the present world, as he does in this documentary as he walks slowly through the crowd with a dim expression The world, says Kieslowski, is the world. The world, he says, is made up of black and gray.

He was born on June 27th, so the gloom and introspection of Cancer has haunted him all his life. But I still have a strong affinity for him, probably because his images speak of the lonely undertones common to every life. But strangely enough, his so-called pessimism often makes me love life more, especially in the smallest details. It is as if the reflections, leaves, water stains and light that once appeared under the Polish or French skies have also shaped the space I am in, with a vague imprint of Old Ki.

This nearly hour-long documentary was made in 1995, during the period when Kieslowski was recuperating from his illness after filming <Red>, ten months after death would stop his heart and take him out of this world.

Kieslowski didn’t much like facing interviews, preferring to smoke in a dark room. It was rare that he agreed to make this documentary about himself, and the fact that the director, sound recordist and others were all his previous partners made the interview easier to penetrate.

The book “Kieslowski on Kieslowski”, which charts the trajectory of Kieslowski’s life, is the best way to get to know him beyond his film and television work. But words always need personal imagination support, when Kier appears in the picture, can’t help but marvel, good spirit and temperament of the handsome old man!

Kier speaks very much in line with the impression his films give, and here he also speaks of several of his film works, Songs of Opportunity, The Ten Commandments, Red …… which is very much like his film work <Fandom>, where the camera focuses on himself in the final moments.

The title comes from a personal attitude of Kier, who believes that one should not panic about reporting one’s feelings because of politeness. He says that when he asks his American managers how they are doing, they reply “Extremly Well”, not “Well” or something. He, on the other hand, would only answer “I’m So-So”. This may be related to Kier’s early years of documentary film, true first.

The old man left us at the age of 54, during his active creative years. If he could live as long as the Portuguese national treasure Oliviera, what a blessing it would be for his fans.